Sunny Sundays!!!

Happy 6 days into 2013 everyone!

Now that I'm getting back on track with my life and my band, I plan to devote Sundays to a quick blog post that is inspirational - something to kick off the week in a positive way.

I can be a total downer and negativity producer (especially with my band) so I have decided to keep it light - to not be unkind to myself - to be honest with myself and to use the will power that I can use for other things on myself.

So here I go....

Inspiration of the week....

Do or do not. There is no try.

Happy week everyone!

Recap of 2012

Only a few more hours until 2013. I cant wait I have always liked the thought of starting over. I cant believe I have been banded almost a year - it has taken me that long to really learn the band and yes lean how to cheat the band (and myself) I am sorry Lola and I am sorry me! The fat me thinks she's clever and comes up with these ways to eat what she wants again and again but now with Miss Lola there she's in for a rude awakening of PB'ing everytime she gets too tricky. So after many tears and many pb's I have learned alot and have learned to work with my band not work the band. below is a short reflection on the year that has passed. I promise the next year will be yummy bloggie goodness coming from a new respect for myself and what I have committed to.

January 2012 - 1 year at my job - excited about being banded - started reading and blogging pretty frequently - started telling people about being banded.

February 2012 - Turned 40 - Started Pre Op - Started getting scared of decision to be banded - turned to blogging for help

March 2012 - Scared to death about surgery - Banded on March 7th - Slow recovery - lots of well wishers - loving my blog friends - found my BOOBmie JennXaz

April 2012 - Began solids - really scared to drink pop or do anything out of the ordinary food wise - blogging steady

May 2012 - 1st fill - 1st stuck - 1st experience that the band is REALLY changing everything

June 2012 - Planning for BOOBS - Starting to have ups and downs with my band - being a bit more adventurous with food

July 2012 - Trip to Boston - Stuck - Stuck and Stuck - move on to diet of Ice Cream and Chowder - Gained weight - Accountability started losing its shine

August 2012 - BOOBS Challenge begins - did well at the start - got into weight daily

September 2012 - BOOBS 3.0 - Met some awesome women that I plan to stay close with always!!!

October - Unfil and band problems - stomach irritated - leave it alone

November 2012 - Barium Swallow - Band is OK - will leave it at prime fill until after holiday

December 2012 - Universal & Florida for Christamas - No weight gain but no weight loss - Saw Speck again YEAH!!!! -  Big .2cc fill back up to 4.7cc in band ready for 2013 action.

That is all in a nutshell - Happy Happy New Year to you all thank you for reading this!!!! See you for a better and more focused 2013!!!!

Quickly...to 2013!!!!

Well let me 1st say that we have been on holiday in Florida for over a week now and it is about to come to an end. I can safely say that Canada and the US are very very different - especially when it comes to food. I went to Target 7 times and will go again today. OMG I love what you can get here. On the downside - Golden Coral - if I didn't have a band... Im scared to think how much I would have stuffed in. Ive done lots of walking - Universal both parks - 3 days, City Walk, NASA - Im pooped! But Im sure what I am eating outweighs all the walking.

Here's my family enjoying Harry Potter MANIA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im am jumping up & down inside!

 


On our way home tomorrow I get to visit with our little southern dumpling Sandra. I cant wait to hear her voice and see her happy face. This woman fills my heart with Joy! Too bad we couldn't visit Rockband Barbie but she was too far off the path for us to travel - but I heard mention of Vegas 2013 - ???

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and is looking forward to 2013 - I know I am. When I return home I am demanding a super fill - LOL .1cc maybe .1.5 I want to enter 2013 with a reminder that this band will work and I think that Im done my learning after 9 months of living with it. I've learned what I cant eat but unfortunately I have learned what I can and what I can cheat with. I blame me for not jumping on that ACCOUNTABILITY horse and holding on for dear life. The 1st time I fell off I decided it was too hard. BOO HOO ME :(

Really Im so good at blaming other entities for my weight struggles. Im learning my band is my most recent favourite - learning for 9 months - Im not stupid so I should be a master by now. I hate planning around meals and I actually do struggle eating with my family - they dont notice even when I tell them - they eat super fast.

Im going to make a list of goals before the New Year arrives so stay tuned!

Enjoy your last moments of 2012! Until later!

On December 6th, 2011 - I wrote my 1st blog entry.

It was basic little blurb about me and my 1st comment was from xbigjimx. I jumped into this whole blogging thing with both feet and even posted the craziest photos Ive ever posed for. I wanted to be totally raw and honest and pure here. It began that way with that intense new lover kinda excitement and after my surgery I needed this blog - it was my lifeline to people who understood why I took this giant step - it was my new addiction.

Now fast forward 12 months...

Life is back to normal and my relationship with my band is not a happy one alot of the times - maybe it's the whole accountability thing???? but my blogging is not as intense as I hoped it would be and I know I lost some of that wide eyed newbie shine after BOOBS 3.0 but Im still here and I can say that I have met (both online and in person) some of the most wonderful people on the planet!

Im down to 30 followers after my name change in September but Im all about Quality not Quantity so thank you for sticking with me through a blog name change, my rants about chocolate, PMS, PB's, Bullies and my not so successful success stories.

I promise the upcoming year will provide some words of wisdom (and photos) mixed in with my general bitching and moaning.

Happy Anniversary aBANDoning fat 4 fab (formally known as ....)!!!

Gratitude finale...

Well my 30 days of gratitude got derailed a bit by life and It was a very hard project to undertake as sometime life clouds what is important and make you overlook the thinks that you find most precious.

So today I am grateful for life... my life that is mine to live and make mistakes and bad choices and come out a better and wiser person from my mistakes.

I am grateful to have the body as flawed as it may be that is still mobile and can take me swimming in the ocean or out with friends. I am grateful for my soul that has seen ugliness but still has the ability to laugh, cry and love.

I am grateful for my life....

Grateful that I can still be Grateful...

Well I have been MIA as lives other then my own have taken over here...

If you have read past blogs my oldest son gets bullied - often - so the last few weeks was a lesson in small town behaviour and mentality...

My child - is almost 13 but he's not violent at all but he always wants to hang with the bad kids and that often gets him in trouble and bullied - go figure - you would think the bad kids would stick up for him but no they just watch.

So after an x-ray of his rib and the kid and the bully kid & his parents coming to our house to offer him up for chores to make up for hitting my child (yes please come to my home so my kid could also feel unsafe here) and a trip to the police and a non progressive call with the principal and a day of missed work and alot of anger followed by alot of crying I have come to the conclusion that you have to take care of your own shit and that I hate alot of people!

So after all that - I have been trying to stay on track with my food and I did so so. I need a fill but cant get one until after holidays - Yeah Florida!

So today I am grateful for being able to still be able to be grateful for anything after seeing the extreme ugliness that the world can hand out - especially to kids who are just trying to figure it out.

ps. super proud of JennXaz who hit onederland!!! Im coming but slow like a a snail or maybe in my case a slug. LOL xoxo

Grateful Days 11 & 12

Day 11

Day 11 falls on Remembrance Day so I am grateful for my country Canada. As the anthem goes... The land of the free and the home of the brave! Thank you Veterans for making it so.

Day 12

I am thankful for Chocolate... all forms of Chocolate - from the seed of the cacao tree to the limited edition Halloween mini Cadbury bars. I love it, Love It, LOVE IT!!!! Melted in fondue, Shaved on top of my latte, warmed in my kids hot chocolate and added to my zucchini bread. Chocolate is magical and tasty. I am GRATEFUL for CHOCOLATE!!!!